I struggle to maintain this blog for a variety of reasons. I could point my finger at time management. I could say that I'm simply too busy with class, campus ministries, RA responsibilities, choir, volleyball, jumping in puddles and being a sage. That is partly true, but mostly a lame excuse for lack of discipline and sound priorities. I won't appeal to lack of time. I could plead for mercy on the grounds that I have nothing to share. That is also not true. I am brimming with musty thoughts, caked in dust and mothballs, with discovered quotes and personal epiphanies, with pointless drivel, and with the occasional profound witticism.
It seems that my problem (an inconvenient problem for a young writer, to say the least) is that I am unsure of how to approach general audiences. The true application of my soul is in personal interaction. In the past few days, I have talked hermeneutics and practical applications of scripture with a dear friend. I have shared meaningful quotes in conversations, Bible studies, emails, and old-fashioned letters. I have sought out a lonely luncher and I have read an inspiring book. I have giggled in pure joy at the thought and smell and taste of approaching autumn. And here I am, before my cyber-audience, and my exuberance falters. What to say that will reach everyone, or at least a justifiable percentage of everyone? How can I possibly condense the rich three-dimensional things that I love about life into a sardine can of a blog post? Or should I try? Will others roll back the lid to find... sardines? This dilemma effectively quashes my creative spirit and sends me in search of another, less perplexing and more rewarding adventure.
It's not that I don't care about you all. I regularly write letters and have phone conversations with most of you. I'll get to the rest of you as soon as I discover my muse. In the mean time, if this blog means anything to you, please have patience while I search for just the right things to share with you. Stories, perhaps--half crafted ones with imprecise punctuation and just the right texture that feels like real life. Verses, maybe, or good quotes which find their way into my quote journal that smells like leather and book stores. Public service announcements, news alerts, hodge podge, cartoons, and other such miscellany. Excuse me while I search.
2 comments:
Thank you for blogging whenever you are able and on whatever subject finds your fancy. You have a gift of writing and I enjoy the musings that you share. I like to see your zest for living each day to the fullest for the glory of God. You are a blessing to so many.
K, your blog is mostly interesting - mostly, for I don't quite feel to be a targeted visitor - and I am always glad to see something new every time I visit. Therefore, please keep blogging; I will read them all despite my low level of comprehension.
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